Life

I am a big one to know that everything happens for a reason but sometimes it just sucks. We really liked the house that we had an accepted offer on. We were using the same realtor so he was giving us a deal on our realtor fees. He also wanted us to keep the other house so he wasn't showing it as much and was putting off other realtor's. I know he wanted us to buy it cause then he wouldn't have to split the fees with someone else but I didn't care we wanted that house. We had done our inspection and got the financing in place we were just waiting for ours to sell. We had till April 15th to have ours sold. Unfortunately our realtor went on holidays and the guy he had take over was showing the other house every day. He was taking just about anyone through but never showed ours. So that meant that someone else made an offer on the house for the same price that we offered but they didn't have subject to sale on it. That gave us 24 hours to remove our subjects if we wanted it. We couldn't do it so we lost it. Anyone that wants to see what we could have had the MLS number is F2927458. We really loved the house. Now we are looking for something else. I have a feeling ours is going to sell but the person is going to want us out quick. This won't be good if we don't find something else in the meantime. I am not going to rush to find a place and settle for something that isn't quite right. I am not used to moving. Growing up we never moved. I was in my original house all my life till I moved in with Tony. The realtor keeps saying that we will move in a few years but that isn't how we work. We want to find one place and stay. The other one was perfect for that. There just isn't anything out there right now that works for us. The realtor that is filling in called us and wanted to show us a few places. He was a bit pissed at us though. He thought we would be looking in the same price range but he was wrong. We were only in that range with a renter. We have now decided that we are not going to go that route. We want something under 450, must have at least a single garage, can't be a filled in carport though. We have to have at least 3 bedrooms and preferably 3 bedrooms and a den. It has to have at least 2 bathrooms. He said that we are being picky now. Well we are. We found a place we liked that had what we wanted and now it is gone so we have to start again. We are going to be picky and find what we want so that we don't have to move again. Ours hasn't sold and we haven't had people looking so we just wait and see what happens. I am mad that the other one is gone, I really liked that house. It was just the look we wanted, but it is gone so we are going to try again and we are going to be picky. We also aren't going to move on the price of our house. All the other ranchers in the area are asking at least 20,000 more and they are the same size with smaller lots. We asked less to try and sell faster but it didn't work. I think it hurt us cause the others are selling. One of the people looking at ours actually said to the realtor they think we are hiding something cause we are asking so low and trying to get rid of it fast. In actuality we wanted to sell fast to get another house we aren't hiding anything. Tony actually fixed the one spot that had mold instead of covering it up. (it is outside by the hot tub so not a danger to anything). I just keep telling myself that we will find something. I just wanted it before Laurens birthday and I went back to work. Now it won't be and Tony is going to have to go digging in the storage unit to try and find all my works stuff that is in a few different boxes that aren't labelled so it could be interesting.

On a side note I left Lauren with my parents yesterday while I went shopping. This was the first time she has been with someone other than myself or Tony. Well it went just fine. She didn't notice I was gone I don't think. She didn't want to drink her formula at all though but still ate some lunch and had a nap. This week I am going to go out for the whole day not just a few hours and she will have to take the formula. I am going to go take part in some paralympic games. I am going to see the mint and the northern house. I missed it for the Olympics and I am not going to miss this. She did just fine with my parents and it was great for me to get out. I even sat in a coffee shop and had some lunch and read my book. It was wonderful. Most mothers are sad the first time they leave the baby the first time, Not me it was time and I loved it. Of course I couldn't wait to give her a big hug once I got home but I still had a great time.

Weaning: Lauren 100 parents 0

This weaning thing isn't working so well. It started out good with her taking her sippy of the formula and then breastfeeding after. Well it didn't take her long to notice that if she didn't drink all the formula I would just feed her. So she got to the point that she wont' take any. Figures that she figured it out sooner than I did. So Tony decided last night that we won't let this happen and that she has to drink it before getting me. This resulted in her going to sleep without anything last night. Then waking at 11 and having a temper tantrum till 2:30 when all she was offered was the formula. She went back to sleep till 7. Oddly this is the best she has slept in a while. Then this morning she refused it again and had her morning nap with nothing. I tried once she woke up with some fruit as she really doesn't even want solids during the day and she refused all of that. She did have 2oz of water from her cup though. It is now 3:30 and all she has had to eat since yesterday at 3 is 3oz of formula, 2oz of water and one bite of fruit. I feel like I am starving her. I feel awful. She is down for her second nap of the day though and I am surprised she can sleep. I do feel bad cause she has a bit of a cold she is battling but I have to have her weaned by April 1st. I have never done this before and I feel awful. If I ever have another kid they will be given a bottle every day. They will also get formula every so often. Even though I hate to do it I can't go through this again. I feel like I am torturing her. I just don't know what to do!

update

Well it has been a while again but I have been busy with house showings and keeping the house show ready. So far no offers but at least one person a day comes for a showing and most often it is 2 a day.

We had our appointment at children's to work on Laurens diet. We also had her developmentally tested as they want a baseline for the test. They told us that she was on track except with motor skills which we knew. Then I got the official report in the mail and it was different. With her motor skills she is in the 1st percentile and at a 5-6 month old level. We knew she was behind but we are working on this. Our muscles wouldn't work right after not being able to use them for 2 months either. Her language is right at the 50th percentile at 10 months so that is perfect. Then what really surprised and upset me was that her cognitive level is only the 16th percentile at the age of a 5 month old. My own development worker though feels this is completely wrong as you can't have perfect language skills but be that behind cognitively. They did do the test when it was past her nap time and she was fasting so she was tired. One of the tests was to see if she would take blocks out of a cup and put them back in. Lauren on the other hand saw that it was a cup and dumped the blocks out and then lifted the cup up and tried to drink out of it. She was hungry! there was no way she was going to put the blocks into something that she wanted food out of. My own worker is going to do the testing herself next time when she isn't tired or hungry and see for herself. I was okay with her being a bit behind but there is no way that she is that behind. She has friends older than that and she is ahead of them. SO I have to just remember that the test wasn't perfect and I know she is ahead of that.

The diet will be hard. She is actually only the second person in the world to be on it and the other kid is in Germany. I am sure once I get used to it then I will be fine but at the moment it is a lot of math to figure out how much lysine is in everything she eats. I have to measure everything I give her and then measure what is left after and then do the math. I am still a bit confused as I won't always have a scale with me so I am unsure how to figure out how many grams are in 2/3 cup of banana. It is going to take us a while to figure this all out. She will basically never get to have animal products. Although they have started her on her weaning schedule and her formula gets mixed with whole milk. She has till April 1st. It is actually going okay so far except she gets up still at night at that will have to stop or I will have to give water or formula. By April 1st though I will only be allowed to give her 800ml a day. She seems to really like her special formula which helps. She won't take a bottle so it is in a sippy cup but whatever works. Again though the formula is like normal where you have so much water and then so may scoops formula and shake. I have to weigh out 50g of formula then weight out 0.1g of tryptophan which is another amino acid. Then add 50mls whole milk and then add water up to 400ml. I have to have a container that has all the ml marked on it so I can do this. By the end of the week it will be up about 550mls but for now it is 400ml a day. The problem I am having is that it doesn't mix well with a spoon and shaking would work so much better. I just don't have a container that has all the measurements on it that has a lid. I divide this formula between 3 feedings a day. That is basically breakfast lunch and then before bed. I just haven't figured out what to do about night time yet but I might save some formula for overnight if that is the case. She gets breast milk after the formula but already I am noticing she takes less now.

So it looks good for weaning so far I just have to figure out her food a bit more and then work on her eating more food than she does!