Wow it seems like time just flies by. I can't believe she is 3 months already. She is growing up way to fast for me. I want her to stay little for a while. She is getting stronger though. SHe hasn't quite got it about holding her head up but she is doing much better. She doesn't roll yet at all. She can roll from side to side but that is it. She does talk a lot though. Not real words of course so I guess it is called cooing but she will make a noise then if you answer her she will answer back. It is very cute. She has a wonderful smile that goes from ear to ear and occasionally laughs. She likes to smile usually right after she has spit up all over you. It is quite funny although she hasn't done it to me so I will probably think differently then.
A few things have changed for me though. I have to wear those awful breast pads again. I didn't really have to wear them before with me pumping regularly but now I need them. I don't actually leak throughout the day it is only when I am feeding. It doesn't matter what side I start on once my let down goes it is on both sides. I went through many shirts for a couple of days till I finally realised what was happening. The worst part was I had to then change my bra as well. At least I was at home. Tony sure got a kick out of it though. I also seems to have some power behind my milk. I can't spray across the room or anything but if Lauren unlatches to look at something she gets a face full of milk. The first time she sort of looked at me in shock like i had done something wrong. I then started to laugh and that made it worse. I am now down to less than my prepregnancy weight but my body isn't quite the same. My chest is way bigger and i will be happy to get rid of them. My stomach is flatter though. Something I never thought would happen. It is just a different shape though. My clothes fit differently. I will still never be bikini bound but I could wear a bathing suit with shorts for bottoms.
I just love being home with her and playing with her. I don't know how I am going to go back to work and that is still 9 months away. I was supposed to get my mat leave extended. The social worker at Children's helped me to set it up. Then I got denied because I took her home for 1 day. That's right if we had never left Langley with her and she had been admitted from there to Children's I could have got an extra 15 weeks. Now I don't because no one noticed she was having a problem. We didn't even know till we got her home. I tried to appeal it but they said the rules are that she had to be a direct admit. The only way I can extend my leave is to not get paid for the 7 weeks she was in hospital and then I can extend it by 7 weeks unpaid. They feel that I could have gone back to work for those 7 weeks. Are they crazy. What parent would go back to work while there child was in hospital and no idea what is wrong with them. It was hard enough for Tony to go to work there is no way both of us could have. Oh well I still get a year so I really shouldn't complain at all. I don't have to go back till May of next year so I still have time.
We have decided that we are going to go to the lake for the long weekends. Lauren is doing so well that we are looking forward to it. I am not sure if we are going to try her in the water there though. I know she will love it cause she loves her baths but this water is a bit colder so it might not be fun for her this year. Maybe next year and we will have more time as well up there cause Tony will have holidays that he can use for fun stuff instead of using it to sit at her bedside in hospital
Lauren is getting older
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Normal Life
It seems that I now have a normal life. I have had Lauren home now for 2 1/2 weeks and it feels like it should. I can't remember not having her in my life. She is so perfect for me.
We had our checkup at Children's yesterday and they feel like she is doing great and right on track. She is still a little behind but that makes sense because she was sedated and slept for 7 out of her 11 weeks. They don't know what her outcome will be because with babies you just don't know. They bounce back so easily. They all think she won't be 100% though but that is okay. So what if she is a little slow in school. It wasn't my favorite either. They think that may be her only hold back is just a bit of a learning slowness. They don't even say it will be a disability because they don't think it will be that noticeable. I don't care. I have my daughter here with me and that is all I care about. Her long term doesn't matter as we can work with that.
She is growing though. We knew she was getting bigger cause she looks so much bigger in her car seat. She is now 9lbs 12oz which I know is still small but for her that is big because she got below 5lbs at one point. They are stopping one of her other meds and they will stop another one next month. At first they told us that she would be 5 before they would all be off but she was doing so well that they will have them off in a couple of months. She will keep one seizure med till she is 5 though just in case. The nice thing though about the med they took off is that I don't have to wake her at midnight now. Last night I let her sleep till she woke up. She slept till 3:30. That is 7 hours of sleep she got. I think tonight I will feed her later and maybe she won't fall asleep so early and then she will sleep later in the night. It was great to not have to wake her and let her sleep though. It wasn't such a struggle to make her take the meds and eat. She just woke up and I changed her and then she ate great for about 40 minutes then I burped her and held her till she fell asleep. I know that you aren't supposed to rock them to sleep but she has a bit of reflux so if I lay her down she will spit up everywhere. So if I just hold her for 15 minutes she falls asleep and then her stomach is fine and I can lay her down. It was so nice. I didn't feel tired before but I felt very rested this time. The only thing is that i think she had been awake for a while before she cried to say she was hungry. She usually sleeps in a sleep positioner but it was down at the end of the bed. She had no blankets on anymore and they were at the end of the bed and she was up at the top of the bed. We had a few stuffed animals in the bed at the top and now we have had to take them out. We didn't think she could move that much. She was hugging her dog though as she cried and looked cute. I didn't think to take a picture though at that time of the morning. Now her bed is empty though and ready for tonight to see what happens. Now that we have become normal we can start going to visit people. We just haven't had much time on weekends because Tony is trying to get our Blazer on the road so that we can take the truck off the road and be a bit cheaper for gas.
All in all life is good and enjoyable. I can't imagine life with out my wonderful daughter.
We had our checkup at Children's yesterday and they feel like she is doing great and right on track. She is still a little behind but that makes sense because she was sedated and slept for 7 out of her 11 weeks. They don't know what her outcome will be because with babies you just don't know. They bounce back so easily. They all think she won't be 100% though but that is okay. So what if she is a little slow in school. It wasn't my favorite either. They think that may be her only hold back is just a bit of a learning slowness. They don't even say it will be a disability because they don't think it will be that noticeable. I don't care. I have my daughter here with me and that is all I care about. Her long term doesn't matter as we can work with that.
She is growing though. We knew she was getting bigger cause she looks so much bigger in her car seat. She is now 9lbs 12oz which I know is still small but for her that is big because she got below 5lbs at one point. They are stopping one of her other meds and they will stop another one next month. At first they told us that she would be 5 before they would all be off but she was doing so well that they will have them off in a couple of months. She will keep one seizure med till she is 5 though just in case. The nice thing though about the med they took off is that I don't have to wake her at midnight now. Last night I let her sleep till she woke up. She slept till 3:30. That is 7 hours of sleep she got. I think tonight I will feed her later and maybe she won't fall asleep so early and then she will sleep later in the night. It was great to not have to wake her and let her sleep though. It wasn't such a struggle to make her take the meds and eat. She just woke up and I changed her and then she ate great for about 40 minutes then I burped her and held her till she fell asleep. I know that you aren't supposed to rock them to sleep but she has a bit of reflux so if I lay her down she will spit up everywhere. So if I just hold her for 15 minutes she falls asleep and then her stomach is fine and I can lay her down. It was so nice. I didn't feel tired before but I felt very rested this time. The only thing is that i think she had been awake for a while before she cried to say she was hungry. She usually sleeps in a sleep positioner but it was down at the end of the bed. She had no blankets on anymore and they were at the end of the bed and she was up at the top of the bed. We had a few stuffed animals in the bed at the top and now we have had to take them out. We didn't think she could move that much. She was hugging her dog though as she cried and looked cute. I didn't think to take a picture though at that time of the morning. Now her bed is empty though and ready for tonight to see what happens. Now that we have become normal we can start going to visit people. We just haven't had much time on weekends because Tony is trying to get our Blazer on the road so that we can take the truck off the road and be a bit cheaper for gas.
All in all life is good and enjoyable. I can't imagine life with out my wonderful daughter.
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