3 months

Wow it seems like time just flies by. I can't believe she is 3 months already. She is growing up way to fast for me. I want her to stay little for a while. She is getting stronger though. SHe hasn't quite got it about holding her head up but she is doing much better. She doesn't roll yet at all. She can roll from side to side but that is it. She does talk a lot though. Not real words of course so I guess it is called cooing but she will make a noise then if you answer her she will answer back. It is very cute. She has a wonderful smile that goes from ear to ear and occasionally laughs. She likes to smile usually right after she has spit up all over you. It is quite funny although she hasn't done it to me so I will probably think differently then.

A few things have changed for me though. I have to wear those awful breast pads again. I didn't really have to wear them before with me pumping regularly but now I need them. I don't actually leak throughout the day it is only when I am feeding. It doesn't matter what side I start on once my let down goes it is on both sides. I went through many shirts for a couple of days till I finally realised what was happening. The worst part was I had to then change my bra as well. At least I was at home. Tony sure got a kick out of it though. I also seems to have some power behind my milk. I can't spray across the room or anything but if Lauren unlatches to look at something she gets a face full of milk. The first time she sort of looked at me in shock like i had done something wrong. I then started to laugh and that made it worse. I am now down to less than my prepregnancy weight but my body isn't quite the same. My chest is way bigger and i will be happy to get rid of them. My stomach is flatter though. Something I never thought would happen. It is just a different shape though. My clothes fit differently. I will still never be bikini bound but I could wear a bathing suit with shorts for bottoms.

I just love being home with her and playing with her. I don't know how I am going to go back to work and that is still 9 months away. I was supposed to get my mat leave extended. The social worker at Children's helped me to set it up. Then I got denied because I took her home for 1 day. That's right if we had never left Langley with her and she had been admitted from there to Children's I could have got an extra 15 weeks. Now I don't because no one noticed she was having a problem. We didn't even know till we got her home. I tried to appeal it but they said the rules are that she had to be a direct admit. The only way I can extend my leave is to not get paid for the 7 weeks she was in hospital and then I can extend it by 7 weeks unpaid. They feel that I could have gone back to work for those 7 weeks. Are they crazy. What parent would go back to work while there child was in hospital and no idea what is wrong with them. It was hard enough for Tony to go to work there is no way both of us could have. Oh well I still get a year so I really shouldn't complain at all. I don't have to go back till May of next year so I still have time.

We have decided that we are going to go to the lake for the long weekends. Lauren is doing so well that we are looking forward to it. I am not sure if we are going to try her in the water there though. I know she will love it cause she loves her baths but this water is a bit colder so it might not be fun for her this year. Maybe next year and we will have more time as well up there cause Tony will have holidays that he can use for fun stuff instead of using it to sit at her bedside in hospital