Getting closer with mixed emotions

Well I am getting closer to having her here now. I really want to go into labour myself though. As much as it is nice knowing that I will be induced on Wednesday and that I will have her I feel that I am being excluded from doing this on my own. I want to know what it is like to start having some pains and wondering if this is it or not. I really would like to do this on my own and have to wonder if it is real contractions and stuff. I keep talking to her and telling her that I really want her to get things going that I would love to have her Wednesday but that I will take her tomorrow too.
On another note I have decided that I am extremely lucky to have Tony as a husband. He is very good as a husband to a pregnant woman. He is always checking to make sure I am okay. He never comments if I don't want to go out or if I don't get stuff done that he wants done. Little things he says are no big deal. He even called at lunch today just to check. He knows I was having back pain last night and this morning as wanted to make sure I was okay. It unfortunately was from my back injury and not a labour sign. I stretched it out and it okay now. I told him that I was happy to have him cause I know so many men that complain about their pregnant wives. His comment was that he didn't have to complain about his wife cause he didn't have one that was a problem. Probably because he is so good. I know he is going to be a great Father and I can't wait to see him with her. I know she is going to be his little girl that is for sure. I know she will be able to get away with anything from him. Except maybe dating. I have a feeling she is never going to be allowed to do that in his mind. Well I am off to go for another walk. There is another pregnant woman that is walking around the block lately as well. I have no idea how far along she is or anything. I think if I see her today I will ask. I don't think that will be rude since we both keep walking by each other and laughing. Hopefully my next post will be one to tell my birth story and say that she is here. Hopefully on her own.