Time

It has been a while since I wrote but it has been such an emotional day for me that i needed too. I am at work and some days are just worse than others and today is it. We had a young patient pass away today and it was just very hard. It makes you think about your own time on earth and what you have done. She was the same age as me and was fine one week ago almost to the hour and now she is gone. It just doesn't seem right. That could be me in a week, it is scary. I am extra tired and extra emotional lately and this just topped it off. At least in my job it is okay to cry with the families and feel there pain. It just seemed so wrong to my to watch her mom and grandma falling apart and crying. It had to be one of my saddest moments in Hospice and yet I still love my job. Tonight I will go home and vent to Tony and probably cry and cry and tomorrow I will be thankful that I am alive now and that I was able to help her pass pain free and comfortable.

Tomorrow will be a better day. I don't have to work and that makes it better already. I will be helping my brother and sister in law move into their new place in Langley. I will probably not be doing much to help but at least Tony will be. He has to go early and drive the 5 tonne for them to North Van and pick up the stuff and then I will meet them at the new place with all the friends and i can help with some smaller boxes and stuff. I will leave the furniture to the men.

I have learned in my job to appreciate life and what happens in it everyday. You never know when it will be your last. Today just reminded me how precious it really is.