Different this year

I have been thinking about Christmas a lot lately as it is getting close. It is going to be very different this year. Not only will I have Lauren which means so much more stuff to bring with us but so much more gifts we will be getting. It sounds like her aunts and uncles have bought out most of the stores. This year we are going to the island for dinner. This makes for a very busy day. I don't remember the last time I had dinner anywhere but at my parents place. So our Christmas starts Christmas eve where we go to dinner at his parents place. Then in the morning we go back to his parents to open gifts and Tony gets a stocking there. We have to leave there by 10:30 so we get to my parents for 11. This gives us 1 hour to do all our gifts there. At 12 we have to leave to get to the ferry. At least everyone from that household is going together. We are going to my cousins place which will be lots of fun. I like my cousins but don't get to see them nearly often enough. It will be weird though as I have always had my grandparents around at Christmas time. This is the first Christmas ever that I don't have any. It actually makes me really really sad. It could be that a year ago today was the last time I got to talk to my grandpa and he passed away a year ago tomorrow. It could just be weird horomones, I don't know.
This past year has been a huge whirl wind for us. I lost my uncle, grandpa and my grandma and almost lost my daughter. That is way more than a person should have to deal with in a year.

On another note we are back to sleeping better. All of the teeth are now through. We thought that would be fine but last night again she started to scream minutes after putting her to sleep. This happened over and over. We would pick her up and she would be fine. We would lay her down and she would be fine then the screaming would start. Tony happened to notice on the baby monitor that it was when she turned her head to the one side. The next time we went in he touched her ear and she cried. It wasn't an infection it was just sore for some reason. I layed her on her side so that side was up and put a blanket behind her back so she couldn't roll that way in her sleep. She grabbed her stuffed dog and went right to sleep. She only woke up once last night. If only I had noticed this the night before when she was up basically all night cause she kept turning her head to that ear. She likes to face her aquarium so I learned last night and turned her so that she could see it but she was on her side so that she couldn't turn and lay on her ear.

I also found out I have to start her on her special formula starting on Monday. I am not looking forward to this though. I don't know what she will think as she has only had breast milk to this point. They start us small with only 10mls 3x a day and will build it up slowly. Basically they are weaning her off breast milk so this is definitely mommy led weaning although I call it hospital led as I don't have the option either. I guess in a way though this has to be the easiest for me as it goes slowly so my supply will go down slowly so I won't have a lot of engorgement issues or anything which will be nice. I know it is better for her but I just wish I didn't have to stop breastfeeding as i love that time with her although it will go slow so it will probably be when I am ready to wean anyway.