I give up

Well I decided I give up with this sleep thing. It will happen when it she is ready. We had started out so good. She was getting good naps in and getting up only twice during the night again. Then Saturday night she was up every hour and a half and wanting to eat. Then Sunday she really didn't nap. We went to a baptism and there was so much going on that she didn't nap. She enjoyed the church service though and was happy all through that. Then she was so tired she went to sleep at 7:30 without having her cereal or her bath. She slept right till 1 which I thought was great till she was up at 2,3 and 4. Then she decided to sleep right till 8:30 which is way later than she usually sleeps. This no scheduled sleeping really messes me up with all the broken sleep. Also with me breastfeeding it is a bit hard on me too. My poor body isn't sure what to do and I have one night where I am engorged and the next where it is like "wait a minute you want more already". So I have decided to give up on trying to figure it out and try to just go with the flow. I don't know how long i am going to last with lack of sleep but I will see. I also noticed that her top two teeth are right at the gums and the gums are all swollen. This could also be a part of why she is all over the place with her sleeping. Like her bottom 2 teeth her top 2 look like they are going to come in together. This can be good and bad. I am sure the pain is worse but if they come in together then it is less teething time that she has to go through. Her sleep sacks should come this week so we will stop swaddling once I have them. She also has her appointment at Children's on Thursday. She will have an EEG to check for any more seizure activity. They want us to sleep deprive her so that she will sleep for the test but it makes me wonder about them working in a children's hospital. If I sleep deprive her then she will just scream through the test not sleep. Also I can't guarantee what will happen in the hour long drive to get there. I am hoping that it will just work out that she is tired and they can hook her all up and then I will just feed her to sleep. This will work the best with the least amount of crying and fussing I think. I just hope it works.
I am getting so excited for Christmas. Tony made the mistake of letting me watch Fred Claus on TV Saturday night and now I am completely in the Christmas mood. If only our families would give us lists of what they want and I could do all my shopping it would be great!