Apology and happy post

First I reread my last post and almost deleted it. It was kind of harsh. The majority of people have been great. Just a few that aren't are making me mad. They know because I told them but they don't seem to care. So I am going to change to a happy post instead. I have a few good friends that have kids the same age as Lauren and it has been great to get together and be normal. We can sit and talk and it feels great. I can be myself around them and it is fine. I can vent if i need to or talk about something else. They have all asked me if I am trying again and it doesn't upset me because of how they ask. They don't say "when are you trying" they all asked IF I was going to try again. I am very thankful for these great friends that have really helped by allowing me to be me and have Lauren get a play date in and have a great time.

2 years ago today I was so excited to meet my little girl. I was supposed to be induced so I got up early and called the hospital for the time. They had me come in at 8. I was excited and a little scared. I was already having some very small contractions but not much. When we got there we were told that it was busy and I couldn't be induced. I was so upset. My Dr called when I went home and had me come in to see if she could sweep my membranes and see if that would help. I also then went and walked and walked. Nothing worked. I went to bed that night hoping that I could get induced the next day. I called the hospital early and they told me I could come in. Well 8 1/2 hours later I was holding my little girl. I kind of laughed at the nurses that told me that it is usually the next day you deliver with your first induction. They were wrong. My body was ready once my water broke and moved very quickly. It was the same with Shane though that as soon as my water broke it was only a couple of hours. I can't believe that my little girl will be 2 tomorrow. She has been through a lot in the last 2 years but she is doing great. Just 1 year ago she couldn't even sit by herself now she is almost walking. She can walk and we have got 3 steps out of her but she chooses not to. It can be frustrating for us but she will do it when she is ready. Next Friday she will be developmentally tested so we will see what happens. I have come to the conclusion though that what the test says and what she does is totally different. A 2 year old doesn't always do what you want them to so it can look like she doesn't know how to do stuff but really she just doesn't want to. I will update when I hear what they think is her level now.