No news

Well here I sit at 22 weeks 1day and just don't know what is going to happen. I haven't felt him move in over a day now although when he does move it can be missed easily as there is very little fluid. I have tried and tried to find his heartbeat on the doppler but Lauren doesn't let me most of the time and she just rips it away and I can't leave her alone for more than 5 minutes to try it in private. THe bleeding has gone to almost minimal which at first I thought was a good thing for him. Now I am terrified that I can't hear the heartbeat and the reason the bleeding has almost stopped is that he is gone and of course the placenta would stop supplying blood to him so it would also stop bleeding. I can't get in to see my OB till next wednesday and she has a small ultrasound machine in her office that she could check for a heartbeat on. I don't get my detailed ultrasound for at least a week but everytime I call to try and figure out when the appointment will be I get trasferred around and then I get told I will get a phone call and never hear anything.
So needless to say I am scared and unsure of what is to come. I really don't want to lose my son. I have always wanted 2 kids and this is it for us. We will not have another one no matter what happens. THis was supposed to be an easy pregnancy and with him not having what Lauren has he was going to be nice and healthy. I am mad that this happened and scared that he really is gone. How do I go on I just don't know.